I do because I care

I feel like I'm stuck on pause.

My husband is gone to work his 12 hour shift.

I don't want to think about the mess my daughter's in.

So I'm in bed playing a game on my phone I can't win.

I had cookie momentum going the other night,

but my awesome helper youngest daughter squashed it.

“Mom, we don't have to make them all tonight.”

She was right,

but now I've stopped and can't get going.

Christmas is going to be wrong this year.

The baby will be at her daddy's, not here.

The tree still needs to be set up.

Gift shopping will be last minute again.

Only half the cookies are baked.

I don't even have a Christmas day menu plan.

We are going to his mom's for Christmas Eve soup,

and to see my missionary/nurse (better than me)

sister-in-law, and her family.

I need to un-pause, suck it up, and start doing.

Everyone else is expecting. I will not disappoint.

Today will be a good day. It's all about what I make it.

I am a grown up, and I can control that.

I will put on a smile, and some Christmas music,

start the laundry, empty the dishwasher, and bake.

Christmas is coming, and even though we don't show it,

my family cares, and I love them,

and I think they all know it.

by:  Paula D. Nevison